DISPOSITION

I have no expectations, I have no qualms,
I have no vanity, only the heart pounds.
I have no wisdom, I have no spite,
I have no drive, only one I despise.

I have no alacrity, I have no doubts,
I have no dreams, then why I have eyes?
I have no greed, I have no creed,
I have no gold, only a lonely heart I hold.

I have no passion, I have no regrets,
I have no family, just character left.
I have no wealth, I have no friends,
I have just knowledge, a heart that can pledge.

I have no judgement, I have just fears,
The World I dread, the World I sneer.
I have no beauty, I have no figure,
I have a mind, sometimes it outshines.

I have a soul, I have a belief,
A man should exist, to complete me.

STRANGLED TRUST

Smile that used to come from an innocent heart,
Got uprooted in the storm years ago,
It was not lost on demise of Dad and Mom,
Got lost years later when trust was snatched.

Smiles were intact, passion to live was alive,
Dreams were still a sapling,
Until a heart was murdered,
Until trust was broken forever.

The void of parents was not so deep like the ocean,
Until he came and drowned me into his love,
I learnt to swim from one shore to the other,
I must have been a bad swimmer.

In history a time existed when I trusted men,
Until I faced a cyclone, until trust was terminated,
Trust was broken by one,
No trust prevails was proven by all.

Times have changed alas!,
Even if we sow love, melancholy we reap,
Even if we sow trust, betrayal we reap.

I learnt not to sow,
Can a soul understand my vow?
Here I stand still, watching the children playing,
Thinking about the dreams carried by my eyes,
Before I woke once upon a time.

PURGATION

Stop wearing the veil of disguise,
Seeing all this around my soul cries,
I can't bear this plight,
The sword is kept in sheath you hide.

The pain is horrendous,
Do you realize?
The coal is ignited inside,
How can your heart and soul recline?

Let the love flow outside,
Let the ghastly fears float sea-side,
You will swim across the ocean of hatred,
Do not panic, God will hold you every moment.

You will come out as a pearl outshines,
With follies deep drowned inside,
Hold the leaf of God and hope,
You will sail across don't doubt.

No wonder tides will whirl your life,
To become a pearl you have to pay some price,
On the shore God waits for you,
With a basket full of joy and laughter.

Almighty takes the demons inside you,
Let the God perish your sins,
God just wants ten minutes of your daily life,
Final purgation will end your plight.

WASHES OF LIFE !!!

My ego is too high,

Friends why don't You come back into my life?

My life was coloured by you,

Sugars, salts and spices of life,

Why can't we turn back time? 

You were the every strand of my life.

Washing and churning have worn out the strands,

Testing times have wrung it hard now,

Hopes and happiness is all squeezed out,

Sun-dried my life lies, soul cries aloud.

Seasons of life have created the havoc,

There is nothing left to fear, 

These are the end days of my life,

Cloth of life has holes all over.

Doom has destined on my door,

You all are so distanced from me,

May be these are the last words I breathe,

Thanks for colouring my life,

Hope to see you in my next life.

LONELY GIRL

I may have committed a hundred sins by now !
GOD do you find me guilty of those all?
When people have love around their life,
And I have no one to share my solitude.

I cry alone in the long nights,
With no dreams in my eyes,
I stand alone in the World,
As the Old Oak stands near the fort.

The Old Oak has birds perching and chirping,
My life is as silent as the night,
Dark hours fade away by the dawn,
No one hears my moans.

Hope has ended with every passing day,
Not one man I find who would brighten my life,
Unknowingly I may have committed a crime,
God tell me till when will the justice be denied?

DARKNESS ILLUMINED

Dawn has finally risen in my life,

the moment you touched my soul,

Desires were awakened from dormancy,

the moment I felt your true love.

Dreamlike existence it seems,

Featherlight my soul feels,

Dream-lover mesmerizes me,

I am unable to breathe.

 

Daisies flowering in the bosom,

melting the ice into stream,

Darkness illumined with love it seems,

Fantasies you dare not intervene.

Designed cannily by cupid it seems,

anguish I dread my Lord,

Dainty the forbidden fruit is,

Resistance is distant it feels.